This is for a person whom I really respect, admire, and care for. I nearly have no chance to open this up between both of us because we both like avoiding awkward situation, and love being the strong one.
I tried all possible ways to make our relationship work, but i guess, I failed. I tried to show that I do care about you, and I hope you knew that I am an action-oriented person. I don’t say nice words, write nice things, but if you take it, you will realize that I am not that bad.
I am so sorry that I have weird theory on friendship – no friends forever nor enemy forever. I really wish you wouldn’t be the one who proves my friendship theory right again. If do, I am so sorry that I have to categorize you as one of them.
No self-praise, but I believe that I seldom disappoint my friends. I tried my best to be sincere, but I can also be the worst friends if I think you are not worth of my sincerity and effort. Why would you want to make such an angel person to an evil?
I do feel very awkward whenever I see you. SUPER AWKWARD. Maybe it’s only me. But, I am pretty confident of my feelings. I know that you feel the same way too. Every time we see each other, you will give me a poker face even you were smiling sweetly in the previous second. I have no idea since when you never look into my eyes when we are talking to each other. You go away, you look away, so, you think that’s what I am worth for, from you? That’s really sweet.
C’mon, my dear friend. Please don’t take my kindness for granted. I am a nice person. I am a sweet person. I am a thoughtful person. I am a caring person. But, these only apply to people who are worth of my kindness. I don’t let everybody get close to me, nice to me, care for me, hug me, touch me, and say nice words to me. Please also remember that whenever you take something from this world, you have to give something. That’s why I normally take after multiple thoughts.
That’s what we call a fair world.
I don’t like hypocrite. And, you do not have to hide or pretend yourself when you are dealing with me. Don’t forget what my field is, plus I am a very sensitive person. I trust my feelings a lot. If you care about me, but you don’t show anything, it still means nothing to me. Saying without action = nothing to me.
I am sorry if this is still harsh for you. I have told you, I don’t say nice words to true friends. I help my friends discover their inner self for free. If you want me to say nice things, please don’t be my friend. My words are hurtful, but definitely useful.
Anyway, so far I still admire your talent and your passion. As long as you keep both maintain or up to another level, I will still look up to you.
Thanks for being so unapproachable. Wish you had a good life and future.
o.o